Friday, October 31, 2025
A merciful two-for-one: "Countdown" by Anthony Marra and "Just Another Family" by Lori Ostlund (O.Henry Anthology 2025)
Monday, August 19, 2024
Goldtooth
I was born in 1972
to parents who had both been at Kent State University during the 1970 shooting.
At the time of the massacre, they were living in married student housing while Dad
was finishing his degree. Mom had graduated a year earlier and was working as a
teacher. She was pregnant with my older brother on the day of the shooting, and
soon she’d take the next ten years off of teaching to raise kids. A few weeks
before the shooting, she participated in the first Earth Day, where she was
scolded for being pregnant and contributing to Earth’s overpopulation.
Their
mixed experience with progressive movements at the time probably explains why their
parenting philosophy was a blend of hippie idealism grafted uncomfortably onto
the depression-era conservativism they were both raised with. My siblings and I
were raised on books like TA for Tots, which our family read and
discussed together like we were all in a book club. My parents let me play
records at night to help me sleep. One was called Free To Be You and Me,
and it consisted of a number of then-noteworthy celebrities singing or acting
out short dramas encouraging gender neutrality and being comfortable with your
own identity. Although it wasn’t my favorite part of the album, I will never
forget the chorus to the record’s eponymous opening anthem. It promised that if
you took the singer’s hand, you would soon find yourself:
In a land where the river runs free
In a land through the green country
In a land to a shining sea
And you and me are free to be you and me
My parents believed in the ideals of the sixties, but they also believed in the bootstraps, no-excuses achievementism passed on to them by their steel factory fathers. I played piano for three years, although I don’t remember ever asking for lessons. Was this because they were nurturing, new-age parents who wanted to encourage me to have confidence in myself, or was it an old-school belief that children needed culture, discipline, and productive tasks? Yes to both, I think.
We
were a similar mix of future and past when it came to racial ideology. My biological
brothers (my only siblings until I was eleven) and I knew and understood that
prejudice was wrong, and cruelty to anyone based on any kind of difference they
couldn’t control would result in swift retribution. We knew that we should not
treat the racial or cultural “other” badly, but that didn’t mean we put much
effort into seeing the world from their point of view. A lot of our ideology
could be summed up by the show M*A*S*H, which we watched endlessly after taping
all the episodes. Hawkeye would fiercely defend Korean farmers or Chinese enemy
combatants or Black American soldiers from bigots, but there were hardly ever
any moments in the show when Korean farmers or Chinese soldiers had agency.
Most of the “Koreans” who appeared on the show were whatever generically Asian
actors the producers could scrounge up. Rewatching the show now that I speak
Korean, I can tell most had only learned to say a few lines and didn’t actually
know the language.
Like most well-intentioned white Americans who
might have voted for either party until the culture wars of the 90s took off
and made us solid Democrats for life, our racial ideology was probably centered
around two concepts: the notion of color blindness and the belief in the white
savior.
Color
blindness is universally rejected by liberals as a racial ideology now, but
back then, it seemed like the cutting edge of hip progressivism. People who
practiced color blindness, as I saw it, were what we would now call woke.
They were aware in a way others were not, like Neo in the Matrix. This was
confirmed for me by En Vouge’s 1992 hit “Free Your Mind,” which regarded color
blindness as achievable only by those who had emerged from something like
Plato’s cave:
Free your mind
And the rest will follow
Be color-blind
Don't be so shallow
Color blindness
wasn’t regressive; it was something only those woke enough to free their minds
could accomplish. It didn’t even feel like something I could achieve, because I
didn’t feel cool enough. It was like being a saint: ordinary people could only
hope to imitate the truly holy.
One of the reasons
color-blindness as a model is discouraged nowadays is because it denies
identity and agency to people of color. If I can’t see color, I can’t
appreciate the differences of others and learn from them and adapt to them. I
don’t think, though, that most people ever conceived of color blindness in a
literal way. En Vogue wasn’t telling us we should convince the rods and cones
of our eyes that they were lying to us so we literally couldn’t tell others
were different. It was more limited than that. The idea was simply that you
were to treat everyone the same, in spite of the fact that you could see they
looked different. It wasn’t far off from the adage that you shouldn’t judge a
book by its cover. En Vogue linked it to this adage in their song, because the
verses are mostly about not judging the narrator by the clothes she wears or
the fact that she dates white guys or that she likes to shop. Color blindness
as an ideology might have been restated like this: Once you have seen that
someone looks different—which you of course cannot help but do—try to act as impartially
with the “other” as with those within your group.
Blindness as a
metaphor invoked the image of the woman holding the scales of justice with a
blindfold over her eyes. One reason for its appeal was that it didn’t require
anybody to actually change how they felt about others. You could maintain your
ancient prejudices as long as you could set those prejudices aside when taking
part in social, business, and legal interactions. It was, perhaps, a not
totally useless stepping stone for the first generation of American society
raised after the Civil Rights Movement, when younger people would be learning a
new way of interacting with otherness while the foundations of the old
way were still visible. Its simplicity and rough-and-ready pragmatism were at
least comprehensible to the masses and provided some guidance about how to act.
The notion of the
white savior was less clear, because unlike color blindness, it wasn’t
something we talked about directly. It was an idea we absorbed indirectly from
the way in which every narrative we knew that involved an interaction between
whites and non-whites ended up with the whites benefiting the non-whites more
than the other way around. This was certainly true in M*A*S*H, with Father
Mulcahy running his orphanage for local children who lost parents in the war. Do
I even need to dissect the message behind Different Strokes? White
saviorism was something a well-meaning white person would imbibe from an
avalanche of narratives in which the praiseworthy, proto-woke white person
showed their modern and progressive attitude toward people of color by helping
them to adapt to and succeed in a world ruled by white people. Neo-liberal
progressivism owes much of its roots to mid-to-late 19th century social
progressives largely coming from a Protestant background, and the missionary
impulse was still there in the late 20th century, even if the movement had
largely secularized.
Their motives
might have been blameless, but looking back on it now, I can see that our
family was in no position to support the emotional needs of our new siblings. My
parents did what they could. They found someone in Ohio who spoke Cantonese to
help interpret when we couldn’t communicate with them. We made an attempt to
preserve some notion of Chinese culture for them by celebrating Chinese New
Year and occasionally going to eat at a Chinese restaurant. We did this on
special days, like the day they became naturalized U.S. citizens. For my own
part, I know that I must confess to mostly viewing them as strange-speaking,
lovable but funny oddities, and only in my best moments did I manage the
empathy to try to imagine what the experience must have been like for them.
The weakness of
the dual color blind/white savior framework showed itself. This framework gave
me enough of a foundation to defend my siblings against the—depressingly substantial—number
of people in North Canton, Ohio who still used terms like “gook” and “chink.”
It meant I recognized that these were my siblings as much as my biological
brothers. It even meant that I recognized I had some responsibility to help
them, but that responsibility mostly consisted of treating them with “color
blindness,” i.e. treating them like everyone else, partly in order to help them
to adapt to being American. Color blindness taught us to treat others how we’d
want to be treated, but it didn’t give us the imagination to realize others
might want treated differently from us.
Families in
northeast Ohio who adopted Chinese kids in the 1980s tended to know everyone
else in the area who had done the same. We got together for potlucks and
camping trips. Some families had far more children than we did, and many were
very religious, so the missionary impulse in their decision to adopt was much
more evident than it was in my quasi-agnostic, quasi-nominally-Catholic family.
I wonder what kinds of conversations my parents had with the other grown-ups
while the kids were off playing together.
Maybe because of
my 80s-version-of-woke upbringing, my best friend for years, until he moved
away, was one of the few black kids in North Canton. He was one of three
adopted black kids in his family, the children of a Methodist minister. When my
family got together with them, I think it’s quite possible we had a sizable
percentage of all the people of color in North Canton under one roof. Once,
during an intramural sporting event, some of the older kids in our middle
school yelled at him that he should “go back to the plantation.” He laughed at
it. What else could he do? I certainly didn’t leap to his defense. Those kids would
have pummeled me. I didn’t think being a white savior meant I should actually
sacrifice myself. White saviors lectured stupid people, they didn’t get their
asses kicked.
Color blindness
and white savior thinking made sense to me in an environment where people of
color were extreme minorities. Why would they ever want anything but to adapt
and fit in? And someone had to be there to stand up (not always very
successfully or bravely) to the casual and not-so-casual racism they faced.
This was the entirety of the responsibility of a conscientious white person
toward people of color as I understood it.
I had occasional glimpses into worlds where people of color were not minorities. We’d play basketball against all-black or nearly all-black schools from Canton or Akron (and lose, badly). Although it was obvious that with these kids, they weren’t looking to fit into my world or act like white kids, that they in fact had their own, autonomous ways of acting and speaking and living in the world, I somehow always wrote that off as an exception. America was mostly a monocultural white society, I thought, with occasional pockets of idiosyncratic non-conformity. But these pockets were in “the inner city,” a place that seemed as exotic and unreal to me as Korea in M*A*S*H.
And then, I joined the fucking Marine Corps
The Marine Corps
encouraged its own form of color blindness, one it believed made the Corps a
unique haven of racial utopia among the mess of society we all came from, a
society for which it could not possibly express its contempt strongly enough.
The Marine Corps didn’t see black and white, they said. There was only light
green and dark green. That was the actual vocabulary used. If you needed to
describe a person to someone who didn’t know them, you said they were light
green or dark green. If it was a very dark-skinned person, you’d say dark-dark
green. (I don’t know why they picked green, the color of our camouflage utility
uniforms, when the Marine Corps colors, as they never grew tired of telling us,
were scarlet and gold.)
Although the
Marine Corps claimed to be color blind, it could also be cruelly observant
about the physical features of recruits. It is, I have since learned, not
unlike China or Korea, where someone a little bit overweight is likely to be
called “fatty” by his friends. Our black senior DI called a very “dark green”
recruit “Daffy Duck.” The black recruit I was probably closest with in boot
camp was Wilkens. I don’t know his first name. We didn’t use first names then,
and nobody called him Wilkens, either. He had a prominent gold cap on his front
tooth, and the drill instructors, with all their imagination, dubbed him
“Goldtooth.”
Because Wilkens’
surname was the closest one in the alphabet to mine, he stood to my left and
slept in the bunk next to mine. He was a big guy, and this presented problems
for us every night when we had to perform a sweeping ritual. We were supposed
to grab our “scuzz brushes”--little hard-bristled brushes--run to the bulkheads
(walls) behind our bunks, then duckwalk between our bunks, sweeping up the
squad bay as we went. When the two sides of the squad bay met in the middle,
we’d clank our scuzz brushes on the deck (floor) in unison to get the last of
the dirt out, and then the two recruits who had the first shift of fire watch that
night would sweep them up. The rest of us would run back to our bunks, tuck the
brushes into our boots under the bunks, and return to stand on line. Woe to the
recruit who straggled getting back.
Yet straggle I
often did, because Goldtooth and I couldn’t both fit into the space between our
bunks. One night, out of desperation, as Goldtooth and I turned from the middle
of the squad bay to run to return our brushes, I reached out and took his from
him. It surprised him, but thankfully, he got the point in time for me to run
back and drop both our brushes off and return to the line much faster than I
usually did. This went on for a few nights until he surprised me by reaching
out to take mine. For the rest of boot camp, we took turns like that, and we were
faster than anyone else at getting back to the line before lights out.
After we’d been
doing this a few weeks, one night a drill instructor noticed what we were
doing. It was a night when it was my turn to carry the brushes for both of us,
so all Goldtooth had to do was go straight to the line. Realizing I was
carrying his brush for him, the drill instructor asked, in the impossibly
sardonic voice only a D.I. can accomplish, “Does he always carry that for you?
Is he your little errand boy?”
“We take turns,”
Goldtooth answered. He had a high and soft voice that you wouldn’t expect to
look at him.
“Welllllll, isn’t that sweet,” the D.I. retorted. “Ebony and Ivory.” He didn't even notice that Goldtooth had used the pronoun "we" instead of the proper "these recruits."
I think Ebony and Ivory would have become our new nicknames, except that D.I. was suddenly replaced in
the middle of boot camp.
When I went to
Defense Language Institute to learn Korean, all I knew about Korea was what I’d
learned in M*A*S*H, which wasn’t much. As class went on, I realized something
about the racial attitudes of fellow classmates. Some who started out training
not openly racist at all would become so during training. They were frustrated,
I think, with so much immersion into total otherness all at once. I’d been
raised to think that racism was always the result of not knowing people of
color, and that if we just got to know each other, the world’s problems would
be solved. That might be true, but there’s a curve to it. Before things get
better, they sometimes get worse as people get their first dose of realizing
otherness can be so, well, other. You
have to keep going deeper in to get past the disorienting feeling of it all
before you can get to an acceptance based on knowledge rather than a general
principle. This takes time and work. Some students got stuck in the early
phase.
I am told by a
much younger, currently active Marine that “dark green” and “light green” have all
but disappeared, and that only very old Marines will still say it. “Most
Marines now acknowledge color,” he told me when I asked him. That seems to be the
way society has moved, also. The song “Ebony and Ivory” that my drill
instructor referred to claimed that, “We all know that people are the same
wherever you go,” another attempt from that generation to achieve color
blindness by insisting the differences between us didn’t matter. Nowadays, we
are just as insistent that people are not the same, and that we need to understand,
appreciate, accommodate, and account for our differences.
Where we go from here
The rise of Trump
has led to increased visibility for openly racist groups, the kind that the 70s
and 80s were trying to get rid of, the kind I thought were all but gone by the
turn of the century. Many people read this as proof that old-school racism
never really went away and was just lying low, awaiting its moment. That’s
certainly one way of reading it, but I think that among white swing voters in
places like Ohio who turned the state from Obama twice to Trump twice, the
number of whites who wouldn’t dream of carrying a tiki torch but who are
nonetheless unhappy with the change from color blind ideology to the
anti-racism they see in their social media outnumber the carriers of torches by
at least ten to one. Every person I grew up with in Ohio who voted for Trump
fits into this category. They all accepted the notion of color blindness in the
80s, so they have a hard time accepting the label of racist today. To them,
racism still means what it did in the 80s: a person who said things like “gook”
and “chink.” Changing it to a subtler meaning of supporting systemic inequity
and then lobbing the term at political opponents feels unfair. As one friend I
know said in 2016 when explaining his vote for Trump, “I got tired of being
called a racist.” It was a vote of defiance. If you’re going to call me a
racist anyway, I might as well go all-in.
I was born at the
beginning of what has been called “third-wave anti-racism.” The first wave was
the end of slavery, the second the Civil Rights movement, and the third a
post-Civil Rights movement to counter, as John McWhorter put it, “a different
form of abuse, psychological rather than institutional.” Judging from the
practical outcomes, the third wave has used one effective strategy and one
ineffective one.
The effective
strategy has been the explosion of narratives from people of color. One of the
weaknesses of 70s and 80s color-blind ideology was that the default “neutral”
position was white and male. Hawkeye spoke for the person of color, rather than
letting the person of color speak for herself, denying her agency. Nowadays, the
available novels, memoirs, network dramas, Netflix standup comedy specials, and
blockbuster movies written by and starring people of color absolutely dwarfs
that which was available forty years ago. I tend to think that if only this
change had been made, many of the other changes third-wave anti-racism wanted to
achieve would have happened on their own. The default neutral position of color
blindness would have changed for enough people that the “psychological abuses”
would have changed, too. Even Trump voters from Ohio watch these narratives enthusiastically.
If our culture had been able to pass a generation with new voices speaking, the
political goals might have followed the culture far more easily.
The less effective
strategy has been to call people who still cling to some form of the racial
ideology of the early post-Civil Rights years racist.
My wife Amy grew up in the same part of Ohio, with as little racial diversity as I did. We went to graduate school in Chicago, moved to Maryland in 2004, and she began working as a teacher in an all-black middle school in Baltimore in 2006. Her only real preparation for her job was that she’d focused in undergraduate and graduate school on black writers. She was a middle class, white woman from rural white Ohio, now teaching poorer, black kids. On her first day of class, she had students fill out index cards with their information. One line asked them to write “something you think I should know about you.” One student wrote, “I hate white people.”
I wouldn’t have
believed it, but the two dozen or so black writers Amy had read during college
actually was a halfway decent preparation for her job. As a lit major myself, I
always harbored the fear that literature was probably kind of useless in the
real world, but her experience suggested that isn’t so. She knew the worst verbal
mistakes to avoid, and she was able to interpret remarks from the perspective
of her students with reasonable accuracy. She has always been one of her
students’ favorite teachers. Her social media today is made up of hundreds of
former students who love her. One of those former students is now our daughter,
and when I deal with the issues involved in trying to meet her needs even with
all the resources available today, I can only marvel at the sheer moxie my
parents had, flying nearly blind in the 80s.
No DEIA curriculum
prepared her for her job. She had no anti-racism set of principles laid out.
She was an empathetic person with passion who had read stories from people
similar to her students. That was enough to get started with.
The limitations of
the color-blind ideology we grew up with meant that only going in with a
determination not to judge her students by appearance would not have been
enough for her to succeed. In fact, even during the heyday of color blindness
as an accepted idea, the cracks in it were apparent. They were apparent in that
same En Vogue song, as a matter of fact, because at the same time as the
narrator is asking for color-blindness, she also tells those judging her that, “Before
you can read me/You got to learn how to see me.” The song realized that blindness
has its limitations. Nonetheless, Amy, who like everyone from our time started
with color blindness as an ideology, was able to adapt from there. Color
blindness, with all its faults, had been a somewhat effective bridge.
For me, thrown
into a situation I was also not prepared for, if I had ever been to DEIA
training, I don’t know if I’d have ever reached out and taken Goldtooth’s
brush. Was that being insensitive? Was I assuming too much? What unconscious
biases might be leading me to take the lead? Should I wait for him to tell me
what he thought we should do? Instead, I made the assumption that “people are
the same wherever you go,” and that he would quickly see the advantages to the
arrangement. He did.
This is the strength
of the simplistic racial ideology we were brought up on. It allows for action. An
imperfect but committed action is sometimes better than well-informed inaction.
The 80s gave me ideas that allowed me to do something. My workplace DEIA
courses, and the discourse on anti-racism, for all their claims to be about
action, leave me wondering sometimes what the hell I’m actually supposed to do.
Rather than
blowing color blindness out of the water, I think it would have been more
effective to simply refine it. It could have been updated to: If dealing
with someone whose background might mean they view the world differently from
you, start with the assumption that what you like, they will also like, and
then refine from there. Our culture now gives us tools to refine. Color
blindness is like the advice given to beginning chess players, such as to avoid
placing your knight on the edges of the board. There are situations where you
will want to put your knight on the edge, but that comes with playing and
learning. A simple heuristic, though, will at least get you playing. The
relative complexity of third-wave anti-racism’s message, though, has encouraged
many people from my generation who used to think they were progressive to drop out
of engagement with racial discourse. Social media’s tendency to flood their
timelines with the most extreme forms of anti-racist messages, because those
are what provoke rage-based engagement, tend to make it all much worse.
One thing both the
old generation and the new have in common is a wistful, hands-thrown-in-the-air
questioning of why we can’t do better. This was voiced many ways pre-2000, from
Rodney King’s “Can’t we all just get along?” to “Ebony and Ivory’s” “Oh Lord,
why can’t we?” to “Free Your Mind’s” “Why, oh why, must it be this way?” However,
I think the exasperation of the older generation was different from today. Today,
the frustration is that the problem seems too complicated to solve. A
generation ago, the disgust was that the problem seemed so simple to fix, if
only people would do what they obviously should.
There is always a
relationship between culture and politics. What has changed since 2016 is there
has been a much more intentional attempt to use politics to change culture,
rather than the other way around. This was occasioned by one group believing
that the culture influencing politics had become too “woke,” which was another
way of saying one group did not understand how the goals and aims of
anti-racism were an improvement on the color blindness preached a generation
earlier. Calls for “equity” seemed to them like the antithesis of color
blindness, and the attack on color blindness itself seemed like an attack on
something that had done some good compared to the 50s and 60s.
There is always a
balance between idealism and pragmatism. If the goal is the elimination of what
may be termed “sneaky” racism, there will need to be a mix of unbending calls
for absolute justice and also political deals struck to achieve less than the
full goal. It seems to me, though, that time is on the progressive’s side, and
there was never any need to rush. Rather than blowing color blindness out of
the water, a better strategy for the present might have been to refine color
blindness by saying it’s a good place to start, but that afterwards, listening
and reflection might refine your thinking. Culture is doing a good job now of
providing grist for that reflection by producing so many great stories by new
voices. If pushing too hard for change all at once is causing a reaction, it
might be okay to practice a little Taoist wuwei and back off for the moment, letting
the inertia culture is creating do its work. This isn’t about coddling
sensitive white people who see their privilege threatened. It’s about a change
in rhetoric to avoid losing an election that might mean the end of the world.
Sunday, June 19, 2022
I'm unqualified to write this post, but who isn't? A wrap-up of Best American Short Stories 2021
So here goes
"What resonates the most, though, from that talk in 2015, is the way Landgraf talked about the good and the great. A lot of people who heard those "peak TV" numbers from critics — 400 shows! — groused back that it didn't really matter, because most of it was terrible. Landgraf, on the other hand, was careful to point out that this was not the point he was making. He didn't think the problem was too much bad TV; he thought the problem was largely too much good TV. Or, maybe, too much good enough TV. The head of FX, after all, doesn't care about total garbage shows or about how many of them there are; that's not the competition, either for viewers or awards, or for critical attention. (There was a lot of speculation at the time that this part of the speech reflected in part FX's frustration at a lack of awards recognition for The Americans.)Here's what he said about too much good TV: "There's just too much competition, so much so that I think the good shows often get in the way of the audience finding the great ones."
Fascinatingly, one student told me that he didn’t like to describe what people look like because he thought it was like staring at someone which was rude. Another remarked in a similar spirit that in describing people you have to assign value to their appearance in terms of conventional beauty standards. This second statement is completely untrue; conventional beauty standards can be made irrelevant when describing a face if you want to focus on how the person’s nature animates that face.
The reluctance to assign names and the reluctance to describe faces seem related. Writers feel that to describe something or name it is somehow an act of colonial violence. Better to avoid it and so avoid criticism.
A few things I will say about the focus on diversity and its impact on literature
Haguillory
In 1970, economist Milton Friedman wrote a hugely influential article entitled "The Social Responsibility of Business is to Increase Its Profits." He essentially argued that businesses should be indifferent to their social impact. An oil company should drill oil as cheaply as it can get away with. If society wants to reign the oil company in, then it's up to society, through the apparatus of government, to force them to do so, rather than incumbent on the oil company to do what's "right" on their own.
Haguillory doesn't live in a world where his rights are politically threatened because of his race. He does, arguably, live in a world where people of his struggling economic class get a bad deal from the political system. In order for him to avoid thinking that pushing for the improvement of others is not an unfair threat to him would require a level of goodness and broad-mindedness that I'm not sure most people possess. Haguillory isn't without kindness, but he also only has a normal person's amount of it, not more. He lives in a political system in which not feeling resentment of others competing for limited resources with him requires above-average moral and mental qualities. Which means it's going to be a strained system. The only ways for a system to survive are to make the demands on ordinary people something that ordinary people can actually do or to compel, shame, or inspire them to become better people who can live up to the demands of the system.
Saturday, November 21, 2020
Because of racial uplift: "Something Street" by Carolynn Ferrell
You ever have an experience where you're so sure something is going to be hard, it takes you forever to realize it's not that hard and you can actually enjoy yourself? That's what happened to me with "Something Street" by Carolynn Ferrell. Two years ago, Ferrell's "History of China" gave me fits trying to come to terms with its meaning. Recently, Mrs. Heretic has been reading the 2018 Best American Short Stories, because I told her it was my favorite one, and she had to skip "History of China," because she couldn't get through it. So I came to this story carefully reading every word, not wanting to get lost this time, which actually made it take much longer for me to realize this story is pretty approachable.
It's a story very rooted in the history of black culture since Reconstruction. It mostly takes place at Hampton University, which, as Hampton Institute, was one of the first black institutions of higher learning after the Civil War. One could go very deep with how this story is commenting on and influenced by black culture. An expert on the subject would have enough for a thesis, but even someone like me, who just knows the basic outlines of black history in America, can get the basic gist. It's really not a story that is hiding its secrets, unlike "History of China." My goal here isn't to go thesis-deep. It's to help readers of BASS who might not remember enough of the basics of black history to get at least some idea of where this story is going.
The obvious
Let's start with what nearly everyone will realize: this story is at least in someway alluding to Bill Cosby, the black comedian who was once the biggest star in America, but now is disgraced because of his multiple counts of sex crimes. The protagonist is Parthenia, wife to Crawley Stevenson, better known as "Craw Daddy," hugely successful black comedian now on the downside of his career. What helped put Craw Daddy on the downside of his career were the "Complaints," which Parthenia partially personifies by thinking of them in capital letters. The Complaints were that Craw Daddy had been involved in numerous sexual dalliances, many of which were against the will of those he had sex with. Immediately, the link to Cosby is pretty plain.
The less obvious
Kenya Barris's #BlackAF titled every one of its eight episodes in its first season with some form of "because of slavery," making the point that nearly everything that is now a major part of the lives of Black Americans can in some way be traced to the historical facts of slavery. Although I generally saw where he was coming from, I'm not sure if a hard historical analysis would support every assertion. Do black men today really like wearing expensive sneakers because slaves were paraded around in Sunday clothes? I don't know.
Slavery is important to the American human landscape today, of course, but a more directly contributing factor to many of the assumptions contemporary Black Americans live with is what came after slavery, especially when Jim Crow was instituted after the country gave up on Reconstruction. Those assumptions are what drive the decisions made by Parthenia in "Something Street."
A History 101 understanding of America will include some sketching out of contrasting views from black leaders after the Civil War of how to improve the lives of freedmen. Even most white readers who have never taken a class or read a book specifically about black history will be able to name W.E.B. Du Bois and Booker T. Washington as central figures who emerged a few decades after the Civil War, figures who had somewhat opposing views of the way forward.
To simplify greatly, Washington believed that it was important to develop a strong black working class, and that if blacks were able to support themselves and show what good citizens they could be, they would eventually find greater acceptance--or at least tolerance--from whites and their lives would improve. Washington believed political agitation for equality should wait. Du Bois's beliefs, on the other hand, could be summarized by one quote: "We must complain. Yes, plain, blunt complaint, ceaseless agitation, unfailing exposure of dishonesty and wrong - this is the ancient, unerring way to liberty and we must follow it." Du Bois was critical of Washington's policy of racial accommodation, of wanting to make black people more palatable to whites. (Here's a link to a famous Du Bois critique of Washington, if this is all new to you and you'd like to know more.)
Although Washington and Du Bois represented two ends of a spectrum, with Washington as the conservative end and Du Bois the progressive one, they both shared some assumptions. One was the notion that has since come to be known as "racial uplift." (I'm not linking to the Wikipedia article on this, which I think is a little suspect.) As Kevin Gaines explains (in the linked source), despite the differences between black radicals and conservatives,
"...black leaders generally countered anti-black stereotypes by emphasizing class differences among blacks, and their essential role as race leaders. From their perspective, to “uplift the race” meant highlighting their function as elites to reform the character and manage the behavior of the black masses. Against pervasive claims of black immorality and pathology, educated blacks waged a battle over the representation of their people, a strategy with ambiguous implications and results. They referred to themselves as a “better class” of blacks, and demanded recognition of their respectability, and privileged status as agents of Western progress and civilization. But in doing so, they ushered in a politics of internal class division...that often seemed to internalize dominant notions of black cultural depravity and backwardness even as they sought to oppose racism. In other words, this method of opposing racism tacitly echoed dominant ideas of class and gender hierarchy. Their view that social progress for blacks was ideally measured in patriarchal terms of male-headed families and homes produced tensions between educated men and women. Such expectations of female deference to male authority and leadership were challenged by many educated black women, such as Anna Julia Cooper and the anti-lynching activist and journalist, Ida B. Wells."
What this all has to do with "Something Street"
Greatness
Eboni
Eboni is stamping down the hill, backlit by moonlight. Her fists are tight by her side--she seems all greatness in her youthful march, her hair gone wild and free as it flutters in gangly strips atop her head--I want to find out if that is true. Are you great? Have you always been great? Hoisting myself from the grass, I stand and wave. Her silhouette inches closer to mine. My arms open, I start to cry. This girl is going to meet me for the first time, even if she doesn't yet know it.
Other readings: Jim Harris at Auxiliary Memory (who shared my finding that this story is enough for someone's dissertation)
Karen Carlson at A Just Recompense, who examines water as a motif in the story in a way that I missed.
Tuesday, November 3, 2020
Being real when nobody else is around: "Godmother Tea" by Selena Anderson (Best American Short Stories 2020)
"...many African American youth underperform in school; the interplay between race and dis-avowal of achievement is the focus of a number of theories (Fordham, 1988; Fordham & Ogbu, 1986; Graham, 1994; Hudson, 1991). Thus, Ogbu (1991) and others (e.g., Steele, 1988) have described how awareness of racism and the need for collective struggle against racism result in a sense of in-group policing of boundaries. Group members who attempt to affiliate with whites or engage in activities viewed as white are sanctioned by the group. This may result in 'cultural inversion' or viewing conventional successes and achievements as not black and as threatening one's blackness. Similar in-group policing is described by Dyson (1993) among black academics, authors, musicians and creative artists who may find themselves channeled into particular content domains, techniques or styles and risk criticism by others in the black community if their work does not fit a narrow view of blackness or black traditions. Thus attempts to define blackness as not white may result in sanctions for those who focus on academics and schooling ."
Joy has an identity problem. Literally.
The protagonist of Selena Anderson's short story "Godmother Tea," twenty-something Joy, is living this identity problem. She wonders somewhat obsessively whether her words, dress, and life are too white. This neurosis is helped along by a society constantly accusing her of being too white: her mother, her estranged friend, a random Nigerian guy at a party. When we meet Joy, her identity problem is quite literal. Her big problems in life, we learn, are that her best friend has abandoned her, her old boyfriend has a new girlfriend, and her driver's license is so expired that it is "becoming difficult to prove (she) was (her)self." The license is a fairly obvious symbol that her issues are related to identity.
Outside of her identity problems, Joy's position in life isn't one our culture specifically associates with black Americans; instead, it's the rather more universal twenty-something concern for not having established oneself yet, needing help from parents, and wondering if life is ever going to take off. I'm a white guy in my late forties, and I'm still not sure I'm past that phase in life. Like Joy, a lot of the furniture in my house is from my parents. So one of her problems is specific to her blackness, while another is something experienced by almost every young adult in America.
What makes Joy's experience of the universal crappiness of young adulthood specific to her is that she's currently without an identity. As a teen, her friend Nicole helped Joy to develop an identity that felt authentically Black in Joy's mind. Nicole seemed to Joy like a "real" black woman, and Joy imitated her:
But what made us last was that when we were together, it felt like we were speaking a special language. Looking back, I think that maybe I had just learned to speak her way. I hung on to every turn of phrase and rhythm, because there was so much hope in them, the way her words sailed out and up with such poise and without fear. My mama didn’t even sound like that.
Nicole taught Joy about "the dozens," which, as an outsider to the culture that practices it, I understand as something like "talking shit about each other for fun." It is, apparently, something one has to be able to do well in order to be accepted in some black communities.
But Nicole has graduated from her teen self. She's got a job now, and a fiancée, and she goes to parties at houses on oaky boulevards where you have to "enter a gate code to even get inside the neighborhood." Seeing Nicole embrace this new side of herself is confusing to Joy, because Joy so often feels pressure not to act white, but here, the very person Joy thought could teach her about being authentically black seems to have decided that version of herself in in her past. Joy is left feeling that Nicole is "becoming one of them," while Joy is "becoming the wrong version of (her)self."
I don't know if this Key and Peele sketch is the most accurate depiction of black intra-cultural pressure to be authentically Black, but it is probably the funniest one I know of.
The godmother
Joy feels conflicted about taking help from her mom, the deliverer of furniture. She feels conflicted about nearly everything. She imagines her mother's charity is a subtle way of judging her, the "messy presents" like gym passes and coupons for maids more a commentary on Joy's shortcomings than attempts to help. Joy imagines not just what her mother really thinks about her, but what all of her long train of ancestors think. She isn't sure if they approve of her or disapprove, and she splits it in half by supposing they look at her with "loving disapproval." She imagines that her mother is looking at her funny for using too white a word ("self-reflexive"), but she also imagines her family praising her for having grown up into a "well-spoken young woman full of potential." Joy's mental state can be aptly summed up by a phrase she uses early on: "a complaint I'd been having with myself."
As Joy is imagining what other people, living and dead, think of her, she conjures up the godmother from the mirror her mother gave her. Like everything in Joy's head, the godmother is a bit of a contradiction:
The godmother is like an ancestor who never really left. Someone who’s here even when they’re not. The godmother is what happens when somebody asks your name and you suddenly can’t remember. When it’s gorgeous outside and you work up the nerve to be part of something but not enough nerve to brush your hair, that’s the godmother. Maybe you stay up too late and are tempted to give yourself completely to unrequited obsessions. That’s the godmother’s doing, too. When life speeds through its continuum without pushing you forward, she starts to look your way. You have to be careful with this familiar face. She’ll have you batting your eyes and practicing your smile.
There's some truth in there, but a little bit of that description is Joy's own self-contradicting brain at work. Joy actually comes closer to the truth about what the godmother is when she's trying to dissimulate to Nicole about it, to ask her friend about the godmother without telling the full truth. She describes the godmother as "a scenario where versions of my former self judged me through the bedroom mirror." That's the narrator giving the reader a non-magical-realist way of understanding the godmother, and it's believable that Joy's imagination is so active where judging herself is concerned that she would conjure something as real as the godmother, symbol of past generations come to life to tell her what she's doing wrong.
Within Joy's imagination, the godmother cooks for her (soul food, mostly), and chastises Joy for trying to make fancy food she can't pronounce. In that sense, the godmother seems to be answering that part of Joy's brain that feels guilty for being too "white," i.e. having a good education, speaking collegiate English, aspiring to learn about and experience things from all over the world. But the godmother's not just the voice telling her to stop being white; the godmother also critiques Joy for wanting to remain black according to her teen self's understanding of what that meant, i.e. refusing to make decisions that could increase her material comfort, the "the blasé way I naturally stood squandering my opportunities."
The mixed message is itself the message, which is that there is no magical message
Joy is a little mixed up about whether the godmother wants her to get her shit together in a traditional sense so she can get ahead in life, or whether the godmother wants her to stop worrying about white people things like getting ahead and be her true self. She senses, though, that it's more the former. She believes the godmother would "find a way to come out on top."
Immediately, what this means to her is that she is going to act out a bit and get her ex-boyfriend Andre to have sex with her even though he's with a new girl, Porsche. (Porsche is a fascinating part of this story I don't really have time to go into, but what draws me in about her is that she's got the bougiest white girl name you could just about image, but also, Joy sees her as kind of a black girl's black girl. Her slang is so authentic, Joy concludes, that it "takes skill to get to that level, years if you study really hard." Why "study"? Does this mean Porsche, also, is having to feel her way around her blackness and figure it out?)
Joy gets Andre to not only have sex with her, but to lie to Porsche to get the man's shirt she was wearing off her back and into Joy's car. She's won some little petty game she had going on in her mind with Porsche. She thinks that this was the key, the attitude change the godmother had planned for her. She drives the next day to get her license renewed, thinking "the city seemed to have changed its opinions about me. I could speed up traffic with the nod of my head. I could weave through lanes. There wasn’t a person alive whose angry gaze could get their hooks in."
It's a false epiphany, though. The DMZ is closed, because it's Easter, a fact that Joy somehow missed. She walks away from the building and almost gets hit by a car, "zipping the city back into order." She hasn't gone through a dramatic change yet that will resolve her identity problem.
There is one more act to the story, and in this final act, Joy finally figures out how to "get over." The godmother is being kind of hard on Joy while Joy is crying in the tub, but when Joy gets out, the godmother offers her tea. One more time, the godmother tells Joy she "talks like a white girl." She tells Joy she "can't even be real when nobody else is around," but she also gives her the tea to drink (which is, let's face it, kind of a white girl thing to drink). Confused beyond her ability to cope, Joy prays "to be in harmony with the city I called home and with my time on this earth and for this to show in my face and the way I talked. And if none of this was meant to be, I prayed that I wouldn’t want it in the first place, that I would be turned into a different girl completely."
This is the moment she finally solves her identity problem, the moment "when things turned around for me," and this time, the epiphany is real. Because she hasn't figured out her identity relative to what someone else thinks it should be, her friend or her mother or her mythical ideas of the ancestors. She's figured out what she wants for herself. She puts on an orange dress she "used to like," suggesting she had put her own tastes to the side for a time and is now reclaiming them. She heads outside, forgetting her wallet, but the guy at the store just gives her the soda she wanted to buy, apparently content with her now that she is content with herself. Joy concludes by saying that her ability to be true to herself, her own reflection in her own mirror when nobody else was around, is "how she got over."
A nice twist on an old concept
Black literature of the past half century has often looked to the ancestors for wisdom needed to face life today. Some stories imagine that communion with past ancestors and traditions could bring wholeness and new vibrancy. In "Godmother Tea," the ancestors do have a lot to offer, even if it's sometimes "messy presents," because the ancestors, in spite of their judgments based on their own prejudices, still have a "loving disapproval" even when they disapprove. But the ancestors also sometimes need to clear out of the way. Joy isn't able to "get over" until she is truly alone, until the godmother is really gone and there was "nobody there to explain to me my options."
Joy isn't made whole through imaginative communion with the ancestors; she's made whole when they go away and she's able to get to work figuring out who she is when there isn't a voice in her ear telling her what she ought to be.
Other readings of this story: Jim Harris at Auxiliary Memory and Karen Carlson, the mother of BASS blogging, at A Just Recompense
